Send A Disciple: A True Story

I'm sure you're fimiliar with the hymn "Leaning On The Everlasting Arms". I am too. In fact, the song inspires this story. This may make you cry. Remember as you're reading along: this story is 100% TRUE.

I have an online friend (who's name shall not be mentioned - he asked for privacy-, so I will call him Jay.) He is gay, like me. We both share similar backgrounds.

Jay was raised in a small town. I was too. We both come from a family that believes homosexuality is wrong. We were shut up in closets and having to lie about who we were. It hurt us both so bad, we thought death was the only way out.

I got through with the tough trials, praying and praying that God would deliver me from this Hell I was in. After my parents found out, I was sent to an ex-gay ministry. I thought God was telling me this was the way out. In my last post, I stated that Satan will deceive us. That was one time he deceived me. The ex-gay ministry only made matters worse!

After fighting what seemed to be World War III with my family, things calmed down.

I once received an email from my Granny that angels can be very busy, so God uses us to help others in need. Well, this is what happened to me. This is Jay's story:

Jay was battling in his mind and soul to have a family and be married. He says that makes him angry... he wishes that he weren't gay. He once thought death was the only way out. He prayed that God would send someone to him to help him out, to love and to encourage him, to support him. This was at a time when he didn't really feel the presence of the Holy Spirit and when he felt his heart was black and cold. He prayed that God would send someone before it was too late. Jay says in his own words to me: "God has done a lot for you... and me, more than I deserve at least. You, as a Disciple of Christ has touched my heart and I'm sure many others. When things get bad, go and do as I did... pray that God sends you a disciple."

What had happened was that I sent Jay the link to my last post "Who's Calling?" and he commented on how well I write, and told me that that post was true. This was one of my emails:

Thanks... I have a huge talent for writing. In fact, I'm writing a book now! I know the tough situation you're in. I was there. You can get out of it like I did. Maybe another way out. All I know is death is not the answer. PRAY Jay, Pray! God will answer your call. He has a plan and it will work out. God can't make mistakes remember? He made us gay for a reason, don't ingore His calling for you. He listens. Why don't you listen in return? Never say you wish you were straight, because you are beautiful and God made you perfectly with His hands. It's Satan that deceives, and Satan will try to make you think the wrong things. If you feel guilty about being gay.. PRAY! Do you want God to guide you out of this mess you're in right now? If yes, pray with complete faith, and be ready for whatever God tells you to do. Yes, negative things will happen if and when you come out, but there will be more positive things in the end. Remember, it gets ugly before it gets pretty. Your reward awaits you!

Jay responds:
Good Lord, your deep (in a good way). Right now, I have to stay on the path I'm on (staying in the closet). So far, I'm happy with the way things are going, but if anyone were to find out, the outcome could not be predicted. The only thing that keeps me going is that when I die, it will not be the end, but a wondrous beginning. So don't worry, I'll be okay. We just have to take different roads in life, so long as they lead to heaven...

I respond:
You're right. If God planned us to be friends, we will be UNITED in heaven [cries]. Yeah, God's been good to us. Always remember that you are safe in God's hands. I have your back, but we can only rest on Jesus's Everlasting Arms. Like the Hymn goes, SAFE AND SECURE FROM ALL ALARMS, LEANING ON THE EVERLASTING ARMS. It's a blessing to call the Savior mine. I'm am so crying right now because of how good the Lord's been to us, and knowing that we both have Him and each other and that we are all one big bond... who's stregnth cannot be broken. How do you feel? Have I impacted your life spiritually? It looks like it.

(This is when Jay tells me about how I possibly stepped into His life).

I respond (to the part about sending and praying for a disciple):
He has, and He still will. The same goes for you. God sent His son to die, and we didn't deserve it. But God loves us so much, He gives us what we need. You know, I once got an email talking about angels. Sometimes angels are so busy that God sends someone like us to take care of someone. I was one of those people who was sent into your life. We both have been touched by the hands of God.

So I pray in endless thanks that I have stepped into someone's life because of God. I also pray that God sends me a disciple when the times are rough. In fact, God has already sent me loads of disciples:
-My Grandmother: Ruth Phillips
-My Psychologist and personal friend: Ondine Gross
-My Parents: Craig & Tammy
-My sister: Victoria
and so many others!!!


When the times get rough for you: pray that God sends you a disciple. God sends anyone to anyone... whether it's for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.

PRAYER: O patient and Heavenly Father, help us to remember your plan and will has no mistakes. Help us to remember that you have sent your main disciple: Jesus Christ. We ask that when the times get rough for us, send us a disciple. Not only send us a disciple, but send us as a disciple to help others in need. Let us do this in your name. Amen.